The toughest thing about being a monster like yourself is that wrecking feeling of out-of-place. May it come from your birth or your inability to really be human, no place, no crowd ever feels totally safe, well, unless you've ingested impressive amounts of "changing" substances.Your life always feels like being somewhere else, not that your current location isn't enough of a hunting ground, or that it can't provide common day luxury and gratification. But there's always this itch, thic itch that tells you to leave, to change to hunt somewhere else, and that maybe, just maybe, that somewhere else will bring you the twisted happiness you search for.
As big as you are on change when it comes to humans, that small you are when it comes to actually bringing yourself to the point where you'll have the guts to pick up and leave. All those mechanisms you built, all those connections you made, that is what keeps you running, and without all that you will wither and die.
No! You won't. You already have enough experience to survive anywhere. And just think about all those new souls who will never know what hit them. Building everything from the start will also be fun, now that you do have a knowledge of a wide range of fuck-ups you should not repeat. And more importantly, now you know more about who you are, building a new identity shouldn't even be that hard.
Move!
