Enjoy the pain!

While theory says that faith comes through clarity, patience and silence, real life throws a lot at you at every time. Most of it painful. Your demonic nature does not protect you from it because of your human nature. Mixing them in a careful balance is the key. Enjoying everything that comes is the key.

Enjoy the pain for it brings you knowledge of the pain you cause. Destroy yourself daily so you can feel what you do to others. Bring down your self-esteem, burn your ambition, forget about willpower. Every day you need to expose yourself to the same hurts you can bring on. Only then you will learn to be who you are.

A monster, a freak, a cambion, someone that, if revealed, would bring forth terrible punishment from society. Luckily, none dare to admit they suffered your touch, it ashamed them. And that is the difference between you and the minions all around. You know pain, you know unhappiness, you know despair, but not shame. For you know what others don't. No matter how fucked up it gets, that is you, and you need to embrace that or you'll go off in a senseless killing spree and end up a fucking article in the tabloids.

Pain is the key.

Enjoy!