Enjoy the pain!

While theory says that faith comes through clarity, patience and silence, real life throws a lot at you at every time. Most of it painful. Your demonic nature does not protect you from it because of your human nature. Mixing them in a careful balance is the key. Enjoying everything that comes is the key.

Enjoy the pain for it brings you knowledge of the pain you cause. Destroy yourself daily so you can feel what you do to others. Bring down your self-esteem, burn your ambition, forget about willpower. Every day you need to expose yourself to the same hurts you can bring on. Only then you will learn to be who you are.

A monster, a freak, a cambion, someone that, if revealed, would bring forth terrible punishment from society. Luckily, none dare to admit they suffered your touch, it ashamed them. And that is the difference between you and the minions all around. You know pain, you know unhappiness, you know despair, but not shame. For you know what others don't. No matter how fucked up it gets, that is you, and you need to embrace that or you'll go off in a senseless killing spree and end up a fucking article in the tabloids.

Pain is the key.

Enjoy!

No more noise!

Faith does not come easy. At least when it's about your own powers. If it were faith in a greater being of some sort, nothing short of a lobotomy would have helped considerably. But you can't do that to your self, or to your true self for that matter. Needless to say that having faith in your individuality will bring you peace, at least with yourself.

Peace and quiet. The only two things you really want. Accomplished in many possible ways, peace comes when you yourself stop being noisy. And of course, when you finally find the means to focus your attention well enough to make the chatter, and the screaming and the pleading and everything else fade away. It's done by patience, discipline, and foremost, by clarity.

No matter what you do to your body, keep your mind clear, focused, like a beam. Strong in intensity yet invisible to all but those who it's meant for. You'll find that concentration breaks every time you use it in the wrong direction. Being what you are, a cambion, an instrument of change and evolution, your powers should not be wasted anymore. Refine your quest, weigh your options, shatter everything that's pointless, destroy everything that's endangering. You are your own passing and your own end. You are your only means of being you.

Focus!